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guess what?

2009-07-21T13:47:00.001-07:00

guess where this writer is right now? oh yes, im in the spare room of my grandmums house in BRUNEI. yes, BRUNEI. after a streneous 3 day journey from Lancaster to London, 4 hours sleep and a 17 hour flight straight after to catch, im still jetlagged from it all. And the day before that i attended mum's graduation in very very high wedges so i'm pretty puffed out.

After reaching London on the first night, we had dinner with Auntie jijah and Auntie Nas. It was pretty nice to meet up with Sarah-kins again and Abang Azizi. Not to mention his nice friend, Amir :) Then after that we went to Azim's house to sleeeeeep. Well, i didn't sleep much because i had..one too many thoughts about things. main thought was about the flight, and brunei. Azim got kicked out of the room by mum :P because he was just sitting in there in the dark watching me sleep :) well, trying.

I had a fun time with him though before :) cos we were on the phone with Divs and Mary. and we were just being well, kids :) and it was pretty hilarious :) Good thing he's coming to Brunei too in December, so that i won't rot in sunnyland.

I talked to broni a minute ago :) and they had fun at eli's party. Chuffed that i didn't go but oh well :) I miss her already.. though its been a week. :| *sighs. I'll meet you soon buddy, december probably.

Oh did I mention, im quarantined for a week? I'm not supposed to meet anyone tbh. But i've been out and about, though i haven't met anyone yet. Aaqil, my littlest brother has a very high temperature so we got him checked out in the E and R last night at 1am. We're still waiting for the results, but fingers crossed we hope house arrest isn't gonna be an action worth taking.

Well anyway,i think i'll read my GLAMOUR magazine for a bit. Then probably try to catch some shut eye. Anyone wanna workout tomorrow?

xxxxx
much love,
Hanna.

2009-07-10T06:33:00.000-07:00

Oh my god, after a whole week. Im finally blogging. Well, today's kind of depressing.. in the life of this 15 year old, opiniated writer. I've had my last biology lesson of ever, last time having Mounika in my arms ;) (:() and my leaving party. -___- im kind of used to having to move and all, but really. I hate having to say goodbye to people.
Electronics is realllllllllllyyy boring right now, and i CBA with it. Oh well, gotta move on with things aye? I haven't uploaded any photos on facebook or this blog.. im kind of sorry but yeah, :( cba.

anyway. Ive got a party after this to go to.. at least that'll make my day.
:)

hhhhhhhhhhhhhh

2009-07-04T09:49:00.000-07:00

we are young.

2009-07-03T06:53:00.001-07:00

anywayy, im in german now. and i really cba with the homework. apparently i have to write up a catastrophe date with an imaginary guy in german. im letting my brain chill for the mo, cos i know over the weekend i have sooooo much to do. Including some packing, music festival practices, ensembles for the little year 7's, party planning and RSPV-ing, i hafta get skype and shop too... jeez, i need to get home NOW. i wanna eat some proper food, instead of stuffing my face with chocolate during lunch. But for definite about.. 24 people have been invited via facebook, but ive asked like more random people to come over. Ahhh welll. :) It'll be a good day with meine freundin. Though we haven't bought foooooood. which is the most important bit of it.

Anyway, gotta do some online window shopping.

TSCHUS :P

2009-07-03T01:06:00.000-07:00

I LOOK HIDEOUS today. -___- the weathers been too hot, and i keep waking up in the middle of the night, having cold sweats. It's a bit stupid, how i dont have air conditioning in the summer, but full on heaters and fireplaces on in the winter. I really can't be asked with school right now, with the stupid heat, stupid coursework that i wouldn't even be continuing it. I was thinking of cutting my hair soon, to get layers on the top, and get extensions. :)

WAHAYY

2009-07-02T12:56:00.001-07:00

Oh yeah, finally. We've set a date for my party on july 10th :) The last friday with my mates. There's a facebook invite for it, so about.. 15 guys and a lot of us girls, plus more random people that i have to invite to go to Fairfield. Party man, Party! thanks to Broni, she'll bring her ipod docks, so we can headbang to Hollywood Undead, or like Bullet. So today was pretty, HOT. i mean, in Lancaster? HOT? haha, och aye, it has been! So yeah divs and broni went to my house for lunch and had like.. bryani and some flapjacks. we might go home for lunch again tomorrow, but depends if we're like busy or not...

And and and.. IM GOING TO LONDON!!! :) WELL CHUFFED. told azim about it, and he was aces with it too, so we kinda have to go out and watch ICE AGE 3(cos i wanted to, obv), or better yet walk about round London like last time.. and like, just randomly talked about shiz and music. Alice might be there too! So that'll be nice... and and and and. Im just well chuffed about everything. I know, I'll be going to Brunei soon, i mean.. im not looking forward to going there at all. because, well.. I hate it there. i know i got family there, but.. i dont know. Plus, i dont have friends there, so why bother right? So imma enjoy...

i might go shopping over the weekend as well :) HOOO YEAAAAAAAAAHHHH.

2009-07-01T14:45:00.001-07:00

We are young
We are far
Born in this world as it all falls apart
We are strong
We don't belong
Born in this world as it all falls apart

I see the children in the rain like the parade before the pain
I see the love, I see the hate, I see this world that we can make
I see the life, I see the sky, Give it all to see you fly
Yes, we wave this flag of hatred, but you're the ones who made it
Watch the beauty of all our lies passing right before my eyes
I hear the hate in all your words. all the wars to make us hurt
We get so sick of so sick, we never wanted all this
Medication for the kids with no reason to live

So we
March to the drums of the dammed as we come
Watch it burn in the sun - we are numb

We are young
We are far
Born in this world as it all falls apart
We are strong
We don't belong
Born in this world as it all falls apart

As we walk among these shadows, in these streets, this field of battle
Take it up, we wear the medal, raise your hands with burning candles
Hear us whisper in the dark, hear in the rain you see the spark
Feel the beating of our hearts, fleeting hope as we depart
All together, walk alone against all we've ever known
All we've ever really wanted was a place to call our home
But you take all we are; the innocence of our hearts
Made to kneel before the alter as you tear us apart

So we
March to the drums of the dammed as we come
Watch it burn in the sun - we are numb

We are young
We are far
Born in this world as it all falls apart
We are strong
We don't belong
Born in this world as it all falls apart

We will fight or we will fall
Till the angels save us all

We will fight or we will fall
Till the angels save us all

We will fight or we will fall
Till the angels save us all

We will fight or we will fall
Till the angels save us all

We are young
We are far
Born in this world as it all falls apart
We are strong
We don't belong
Born in this world as it all falls apart

We are young
We are far
Born in this world as it all falls apart
We are strong
We don't belong
Born in this world as it all falls apart

i have every reason.

2009-07-01T14:40:00.000-07:00

I have every reason to be mad in life right?
Im pyschosocial.

2009-06-26T11:45:00.000-07:00

EVELYN:

yo whats up hanna?
fancy a banana?
stop wearing that bandana
makes you look like a man(a)
hanna went to town
she was wandering up and down
saw a loser in a crown
and the crown it made her frown
oi hanna why dont you smile

just cos hes talking to a child
doesnt mean he's a paeodophile
so you don't need to run a mile!
hanna got on her skateboard
jumped in the air...SCORE!
landed on a billboard
and fell straight off. good lord!

silly hannah hassanal
that trick didnt go too well
you looked pretty clumsy when you fell
but don't worry han, you don't smell =]

HANNA :

Sitting in Geography, trying to find a map of Lancaster.
Dont you know, dear evelyn. we're an hour above manchester?
We chomped a chilli before lektronics,
though, we have more fun learning plate tektoniks.
You love to burp, You love food.
Hopefully you don't marry an Ood?
We've got a million of things left to do.
Including my little rap, on living in an igloo.
Hanging out with a hindu and a jew,
Learning KungFu and Getting you a tattoo.
Though I've got a few weeks Left.
We gotta make it the most MINDBLOWING weeks im ever gonna have....and, if you don't , you'll get charged of theft.
So XX is the number of days i've got in this country,
Dont you think we have to slaughter some poultry? :P
I gotta love your hugs though,
cos girl your hugs are comfy like... BREAD DOUGH! :)
♥
xxx

Officially.

2009-06-26T11:16:00.000-07:00

Officially... a few more weeks till i go back to Brunei. and oh my god, i am not ready. I haven't packed all my clothes or anything,. and i'm still wondering how i'm gonna pack my piano. I've spent a pretty good day with my mates today, though i had to tell them.. well, some bad news about things. But they took it very well, which is good on my side. Me and Evelyn did the chomp a chili challenge, and yes, I WON. :) obviously enough, we both cried though.. they were mega phat chillis!!!I've got a lot to do in this weekend.. A LOT. I'm gonna make this the most memorable weeks i have ever had, starting with my marriage proposal to Martha with a gummy ring, chomp a chilli, a group walk in town during citizenship ( yes, we were ALLOWED in town), and chilling with the bestest mates... :')

I Love you guys sooooo much... :)

I think tonight's aimed at rewriting my Glass Menagerie Essay, do some laundry which i have succesfully done myself, for... 2 months a bit now. Wellll chuffed. :) *sighs. I gotta move on with life right? Im staying positive (Y)

am i stalked?

2009-06-23T09:32:00.001-07:00

GO AWAYYYYY.
GRRRR.

this pretty baby.

2009-06-23T09:23:00.000-07:00

Im a Guns And Roses Girl.
A rockchick.

2009-06-23T03:54:00.000-07:00

It’s been a while since I’ve blogged, yes I’ve noticed. I mean gosh sakes, it’s my blog. I’m pretty much in the middle of ICT right now, listening to what Mrs Conron has to say. I’ve been pretty busy lately with coursework, and packing my books ready for the summer holidays. Still unsure of when Im going though, no actual idea when. ¬_¬ Besides that I’ve got music festival stuff to help out with as well as pending Youtube videos that I have to make soon. I haven’t been doing much singing lately so I kinda am behind with….the Youtube community. But oh well, its only been … a week’s hiatus?
Besides that I’ve been going out a lot, and I only get home at about.. 7pm every night and what with the recent events, I get tired and I’m not even on facebook that much anymore. As well as that, Im sorry to those who have been texting me up recently, ( I MEANT 2 MINUTES AGO). Yep, This blogger has run out of her 300 texts. AGAIN. Azim’s got his performance today, and I haven’t even texted him up for that… ¬_¬ Though it’ll be fine, because I’ll probably be talking to him on webcam later after school. I wonder when I’m going to London again, hopefully soon. Cos I kinda miss the dude. Haha, but he misses me more hence But, because it’s Tuesday I have to volunteer at Barnardo’s with Emz. Broni and Mary have gone to Ripley because of their RS trip, leaving me and Divs to run their Japanese Taster session for periods 7 and 8. Well, at least I’ll be missing P.E J
Life’s been unpredictable. Not that I can go on much about it, but yeah.. It has been. I’ve been questioning a few things.. but it kinda feels like lifes on a loop. But eitherway, im kinda the person who look son the Brightside of things. So there’s not that much to worry. J
So after this, I have to go to Room 31 with Ella and Holly to sort out Ensemble stuff I think? Besides that I was opting to go home during lunch with Divs to go.. eat or watch TV then come back for class later on. But I’ve got chemistry to do….
ARGH. Doesn’t help that there are sooo many sales going on at the moment, and I really need to buy some summer clothes. Let it rain money, your holiness. Let it rain. ^_^
A big fat chocolate cake sounds nice… right about NOW.
I MEAN NOW.

I need to go to a concert soonnn :/ I've been listening to Bullet For My Valentine and Linkin Park.... I need to watch them LIVE!

2009-05-12T07:00:00.000-07:00

AND IT OFFICIALLY IS EXAM WEEK.
bullocks to that.

It has been quite sometime now that i have blogged, and i must say, sorry for the hiatus, the procrastination. i've been going out a lot lately, and meeting a lot of my friends everyday, and i must admit i haven't done much revision though seeing it is exam week, and i have 7 exams this week, and the final electronics exam on monday.

oh, and guess what? yes, this femme fatale finally has credit uploaded into her phone! and now, i can finally communicate with my much loved text peeps. I met them again today at subway, which i must consider is our hang out place at the moment, sheah right ; subway. I went out for a walk with mum out at the millenium bridge down south of lancaster, then we walked about till we reached to town to get some stuff in boots as well as do some window shopping. :) i'm gonna do some major shopping some time soon, because i'll be going to brunei, oh.. in 3months time :) i am looking forward to it in a way, because i'd be meeting new people as well as my old friends and family. but there's still a half of me that absolutely would just not want to go anywhere else, but here.

Major update as well, is that i'm going burgundy over the weekend. yes, burgundy. a shade of brown that is considered red oak but a bit stonewashed. As well as that, i've been downing a lot of robinsons and red, oh cos i am that much of a rockstar, as well as eating a whole lot of salads and doing about 50 or so sit ups in a day for a good hot bod for summer. i don't see the difference yet, but maybe in a few months or so i'd be able to see something? cos i've got plans this summer, :) a whole lotta plans.

newest text : 'Lol, jonas brothers is outside my school' - Azim.

i say, I AM NOT INTERESTED. even if joe jonas, is kinda cute.

oh yeah, im going for this restaurant thing on friday or some other day, kind of fancy but not fancy... though, i might be buying a dress for it. :)

anywayyy,
blog tomorrow.

p.s some people really need to get a life. including you.

HIYA.

2009-05-06T06:53:00.000-07:00

Well Here, would like to feature :

BETH KEMPTON AND LIZZIE FAWCETT

and they have started the blogging scene, and here is their link:

GOTHS4LIFE

Happy Blogging to you guys! :)

XOX

feeling kinda worthless.

2009-05-05T09:37:00.000-07:00

Yes, it is revision week for me starting from right about 8pm tonight. and i'll be buring the midnight oil, to revise up till 12 am. Not to mention my e.lit coursework that i have to finish by tonight. *sighs*. I just feel pretty pressured with things at the moment. a little pressure is fine, but i feel like.. i dunno. am i pressuring myself to do really well? to wanna look good as well on the side? I mean, i cried my eyes out when i nearly ate my second hotdog that mum made. I know, paranoid much? but yeah. I just, am feeling too... down about things. Im thinking of starving myself,.. not to eat anything i mean. like for sure, and triple on the exercise load. as well as revision and coursework. Hahaha, mental much.

:) i have gone cucccckkoooo. ouch. HAHAHAH.

live again.

2009-04-26T14:00:00.000-07:00

Simply Red- You Make Me Feel Brand New :D <3

It's monday tomorrow and first thing that i have to kick start is on my art painting. :) well, there's something that would keep me going tomorrow morning. I don't know but i've been doing some major thinking again. About stuffs that i used to think were like, my life. I don't know, have i come to realization that sometimes in life, you don't really need to work that hard to get what you want? the minute wonders that you dont seem to notice. Keeping it on the down low, shrugging things off as well as plainly living it, without extravagance? or is it just that i've grown out of this ever so comfortable life of mine, and have wished for something more, motionless. more on the slow lane? :)

i dunno, i think ive been.. very moody lately, must be the pms that im anticipating but really, ive just actually understood a lot of things. and how people are. i know more than you think to be honest. but really, i don't waft about the air like a reeking stench to odourise the globe with my ever soo perfect background, and lifestyle. i think some people have made it clear, that they've lied their lives toooo much. i kind of had a thought on how it was, but really. :) some people kinda need to live it :) that must be why ive been listening to this song above. (; well, the song means something though, i'm not the one to keep a loose upper lip about everything going on. a lot of things are happening, just that people ought to just watch out soon enough, things are bound to wowza. (;
(: speaking of which my operation is on tuesday morning! so thumbs up!(Y) though, i wish they could just do both eyelids, because ive had multiple growths in them quite recently, not just one growth. i was thinking of videotaping myself whilst under general anesthetics because it would be down right skankful. (;

2009-04-25T12:30:00.000-07:00

Must i apologise for the oh soo much anticipated writer of this blog? which is me, OBV. Sorry for not being able to update the whole world about the past few days, or should i say my pretty sluggish week? Seeing as how i've got school at the moment, I can't be asked with blogging nor making Youtube videos. I've been doing an up healthwise though, taking in vitamin B tablets which i should warn to other people, make you sleep and eat more. Reason i took em, was to maintain my energy levels because i get tired very quickly because of the hiking that I've been doing for the past few weeks. Minus London, of course.

I have a lot of things to look forward to this half term of school, seeing as how i would be sitting for my EOYS, as well as having a lot of birthday parties! :)

DATES TO LOOK FORWARD TO :
today : Sarah Lees's Birthday (: ( So, party on Monday)
monday : so much coursework! 3 pieces to finish up on.
tuesday : hospital. *sighs.
wednesday : azim's birthday! (: whoop deee!
11 May : End Of Year Exams
15 May : Possible whoop dee party for broni (;
17 May : Broni's Birthday!!! (: baby girls 15 now!
21 May : Babah's Birthday! (: big old 40.
22 May : Break up for Half Term.
23/24 May : Party at B's. (; bessttest ever.

Well anyway, ATM CBA WUT. (;
here's some photogs that i took like yesterday? cos i was bored.

radio crash.

2009-04-17T03:42:00.000-07:00

GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD MORNING EVERYBODY.

LISTEN TO THIS, it's been in my head.

a lil bit more.

2009-04-16T03:12:00.000-07:00

been out in london.

2009-04-14T14:10:00.000-07:00

I've finally arived home from lancaster, and i haven't reallyyy done much today ;) except waking up late!well not really, 10 ish am cos i slept pretty late last night. Had a little case of insomnia yet again. Though after i blew out my *shrine* candles i just... well thought of things and slept after that.

It'll be one week till school time, and I have got pretty much a lot of things to do such as ict coursework and my painting to do. Despite this though, if Azim comes over from London this weekend, i'd have to rush all my work... in 3 days. no wait, 2 would be okay.

Anyway, I forgot to mention... I've been in LONDON for the past 4 days. But for a change, we slept over at Uncle Ghani's place. He also has a son, whose about my age so it was the aces to actually meet someone.. who was like me for a change. Scarily enough, we had a lotttt of things in common. Except somethings where we're exact opposites. What with my OCD disorder and family lifestyle, he's messy and pretty much lonely most of his time. We kinda share the same music and dress sense, as well as some..... well isolation things.

So we spent our nights walking about aimlessly one night, the next was some chit chat and some photo taking, which is well on facebook yet again. So yeah, get facebooookk! But yeaah, it was a very nice time cos i got to shop at Primark and Hamleys. And went to surrey as well to meet some other people there though ka E'Et wasn't there.

But yeah,.... :) Enjoyed london.

VIS A VIS:

Thanks to auntie ena and herah who stayed over with us.

FOR MORE PICTURES, go on facebook. this is just like.. a bit of it.

LONDON.

2009-04-11T01:13:00.001-07:00

....

urghh...

LONDON.

(;

:D

2009-04-09T14:57:00.000-07:00

knoww whyyy im deleting this blog?
or rechanging everything???

:)
its cos.
i dont want people reading up on me anymore.
that way, people move on with their lives.

thank you.

CHEEENNN.

2009-04-09T14:54:00.000-07:00

cheeennn.
anyway.
im removing this blog.
:)

i will update the new link soooooon :)
then again, i might jusr change the wholeee layout:D

nywayy.
:)
LOWE YOU.

and i have a blunt fringe.

2009-04-09T14:30:00.001-07:00

and tick one (v)
i have a blunt fringe.

tick two(x)
must lose weight.

sometimes haters just have to live and learn.

2009-04-08T03:54:00.000-07:00

I've been staying up late for the past few days, not really late but the occasional 12am stay-ups. I've been listening to insomnia, by craig david extra loads lately. and for shiz,i am loving the beat that it has. the lyrics are so and so because its because of a guy dissing his girl or he's asking for forgiveness from her. Somehow in a way, I can be related to this song somehow.

Insomniaaaaa aaaaa aaaaa .

So today, I think I'm gonna join mum and her friends to Matalan, or i might not. On one hand i need to go find a red dress but on the other hand would everyone fit in the car? LOL. Because we recently got a ford mondeo, so thats kind of why. Plus, moneywise. Babah's money has been sent via auntie kidah though, it takes about a week of prolonged anxiety for the money to arrive. doesnt help that im going to london on friday. Cos, mum kept on telling me to just go buy it there. Though, obviously the Primark there would be a tad bit pricier than the ones in Manchester or Preston.

*Sighs* I miss Brunei.

anyway off to fix my hair.

i think im going to.

2009-04-07T15:07:00.000-07:00

It's been a few days of feeling rather depressive though i've been quiet about it. I haven't gone off and complained about such things like somebody. I don't know, in a way. i feel surrounded by bitter people. BITTER to not let go of things that have happened. So for this easter, I'm going through a rather opening phase of my teenage years, and it calls for a makeover, a shopping spree, and a fresh new start to my files.

I can't be asked to do anything at the moment, which involves using the laptop or whatever, besides the usual msn gaffes between me and my mates. But really, i just have been thining and walking about alone. Oh, P.S i've gained a pound. :/ which kinda sucks because i've been trying to lose weight, fast. But auntie ena said that snacking avoiding rice or carbs is sooo not the way. So i ought to eat 3 set meals and stop snacking, obviously.

I'm gonna cut my hair as well, vair soon. Cos, well. im sick and tired of my hairstyle at the moment, which is such a stereotypical asian haircut of a side fringe and layers on the sides. I think i ought to grow out the hair at the back and the sides, and have a blunt fringe. Not to mention, a wardrobe makeover. Because it's been a while since i shopped properly for stuff. Which reminds me, i have to find a red dress for my performance as well as a white one for the photoshoot (:

But yeah, a few more days of doddling about with guests and I'm off to London on Friday, for about 4 days of relaxartion? Hopefully they have plugs so that i could do my hair everyday.

Anyway,
Insomnia here has to go and sleep.
X

oh, and ps.
EVERYBODY IS SO NO SATISFIED WITH THEIR LIFE, NOTHING IS EVER PERFECT AND YOU HAVE TO LIVE PAST IT WITHOUT BITTERNESS.

oui?
merci.

lancaster walkabout. (:

2009-04-06T02:08:00.001-07:00

jonny's silly note.

2009-04-05T11:59:00.000-07:00

Dear Hanna,
I don't really know how to tell you this, you're a leprechaun. I think I realised it last year when you peed your pants at the mental hospital. I'm sure you're cowardly enough to understand that I get turned on only by garbage men. I'm returning your toe ring to you, but i'll keep your left ear as a memory. You should also know that I told in my confession today about the moose poaching and I have a passionate interest for mice.

Love always, Jonny

Haha, thanks Jonny!(: Yet again, a funny tag thing on facebook. (:

and they are here!

2009-04-04T14:58:00.000-07:00

and they are here! (: so would be chilling with them for a few days.

bruneian TAG.

2009-04-04T05:26:00.000-07:00

Inda bulih cakap urang putih or inggeris or apa saja bahasa selain cakap Brunei.

Hai buleh kenalan

1.Sapa nama mu?
-Nama me, Hanna kaliah. you ada fs?
(HAHAHA, the typical bruneian chat up line:
'You ada fs?')

2.Haiseh lawa namamu,umur mu brpa?
-man, you kenal my ex teacher kah? namanya haiseh. ah,... baru jua, manis lima belas.
(lol, sweet fifteen)

3.Adeh,dapat d urat ni.ada gf/bf dh?
-Ehhh, bahapa kan urat urat. kita ani, tua kali. atu, kalau me berboyfriend kah, ikut suka hati me.
(no boyfriends)

4.Alaa mcm nada chance.skulah or kraja?
-ehh, form 4 kaliah.
(year 11 man)

5.Siuk tah?
- ahh awu jua lah, pasal kami semua bini2 lawa, lapas atu kami suka jalan2 sama2.
(hot chicks man)

6.Masa ni tinggal sama sapa?
- Ayah, Ibu, Adik Kecil darab 3 dan amah.
( family)

7.Brpa urang adi beradi?
- 3 adik lelaki.

8.Selalu ta kamu kelaie?
- adakalanya lah.. macam kucing sama kuyuk jua lah.

9.Kalau kelaie sapa manang?
- me lah, siapa lagi. yang tua mesti manang.

10.Apatah hadiahnya tu kalau manang?
- manang lah apa yang dikelaikan atu, cam gula2... jamban pass. klaie main game jua ada, sama tibi.

11.Puas tah ati mu?
- awulah. :)

12.Bagus eh.ada bf/gf dh?
-eh... bukan me udah jawab kan? NADA kaliah. malas me kan bebf. pasal kan, entah. spoil wah.

13.mcm balik2 soalanku atu.sapa namanya?
-.... kwang kwang. HASAP! and HABUK.

14.lama dah kmu togeder?
- me dangan hasap. inda.. baru juaaaa... 2 minit. HAHAHA.

15.hendsem/lawa ka darling mu?
- indalah. me lagi lawa... malas me ingau kan be bf bahh. but si HABUK hensem, pasal ia greyy, and selalunya ada me tejumpa duit 1 pound di rambutnya.

16.mana ia masa ani?
- rumah mamanya kali. entah, habuk ani ada rumah kah inda. yang me tau, iya datang masa inda diguna.

17.Inda kau rindu ia?
- hari hari ada habuk. di bilik me tia, di jamban me tia. ikut ikutan bah habuk me. adakalanya pisuk pisuk pintu ada jua.

18.Untuk apath tu kau be bf ah?
- eh, nya me nada bf. habuk adalah. ber bf masa umur 15 ani, cam... buang masa man. ngalih ngalih kan balikan ia kredit apa, lapas 4 bulan sudah putus. pelajaran jua lah man, nanti inda terfocus kan belajar. bukan dari expirian ni, banyak kawan me kana udah. me malas lah kan catu, apa jua.. nya mama me, 'there's a time and place for everything'

19.kawin ta ko nanti sama ia tu?
- ehhh sama siapakan? alum kali ah.

20.Jgn lupa jemput aku ah?
- Insyallahhhh.

Personaliti and macam2 lagi lah

21.kau ani manja ka?
- nya mama me, awu. pasal me macam kucing kalau sama mama.

22.Senitip?
- ahh.. senitip kaliahhh. pasal mama me ucap me lampuh sa hari atu, stress me tarus.

23.Macam pmrah ko ani?
-...... adalah. hari nyaa.

24.jgn mrh aku ah?
- capi. apa kan me marahkan?

TO BE CONTINUED

starting out new.

2009-04-03T15:24:00.000-07:00

You could say that things haven't changed for the better, but i could argue that having life this way, is just the creme de la crop. Personally, I've gone through a lot of things in life so that kinda has made a little bit of a senile creature out of me. Though i wouldn't say that the events that happen in my life are somewhat in a way boring. All of them are equally good or bad, depends how you weigh up the pros and cons of each situation. Right now, I really just don't wanna think about people that try to make my life such a bottomless pit of endless confrontations and pent up anger. What more could i want? My life is perfect in every way, only about 1 percent of it is spent on being pessimistic, but most of the time its all unicorns and the oh so cliche sunny days and bright rainbows.

So to you out there, I'm living my life now. So go live yours.
I'm tired of having you wait around my life.

cousins visit! :) abang hafeez!

2009-04-03T12:16:00.000-07:00

i would like to point out that oh yes! it is now officially the easter holidays! and 2 weeks of relaxation, chilling with some peeps has been awaited for. :) would be chilling with some german people over the weekend. Along with some guests again, on monday. Then, i'll be meeting azim ghani down in london cos i'll be staying over there with the family cos we're headed off to chessington park for the holidays. I can't really be asked to go anywhere really, what with the load of work that i've been given, alongside singing rehearsals for my performance on 22nd April.

But anyway, here was some shots taken a few days back.

hahaha, thanks for the shades :)

Been spending 3 days with this cousin of mine, who i never knew really existed. But yeah, apparently he's quite close to me, i mean relation wise. Even though we had a short time chilling and just hanging out it was aces! and hope we get to meet soon, though you'd be flying off to london when im going there! :)

heyy. (:

2009-03-31T04:04:00.000-07:00

i'm in art now, and pretty much just skiving.

hafeez is at home, and he is such an awesome cousin! (:

He plays the piano, as well as .. also listening to Tiesto. (:

I'm just a but psyched that i have a 'new' cousin, and hopefully i'll be bringing him out today, town maybe?

Bruneian Night in Lancaster tonight, so i'll post up some pictures as wellllll as some rather odd singing from me, b and emz. (:

*OUT*

also, T. Peejah is coming from Germany this Friday..

so i'll be chilling with her and some BruGermany People.

baby is here.

2009-03-29T05:46:00.001-07:00

its good that it has letters sticktaped on the keys yknow. its been what.. a few years since i played the piano. so im rusty myself.

i think im gonna spend my days learning songs on this thing here. finally, i have a piano. despite it being a classic 1940's one (:

it's pretty much an antique. (: but a little set of new keys and some red varnish would clean this baby right up (: daddy's gonna do all that soon, the varnish i mean.

i hafta learn how to clean the insides first.

(: heck, its no yamaha. or kawai. its a Blankerstein. but baby, it plays fine fine fine. (:

use your love.

2009-03-28T04:40:00.000-07:00

I'm gonna try a new look for this summer (: Some vintage 1940's style clothes and hairstyles (: Especially Betty Page the ultimate pin up queen. Close to Katie Perry the goddess of modern vintage (:

i found this thing on how to be her to so here it goes :

BETTY PAGE HOW TO: (kind of like katy perry)

Step 1

Wear fitted satin retro dresses. Bettie often wore slinky dresses made of satin, with body-hugging fits to accentuate her famous curves. The dresses can be in any color; just make sure they're on the tight side.

Step2

Add chiffon bodices, which are sultry additions to any wardrobe. They show and conceal skin, part of Bettie's feminine mystique.

Step3

Dress in the rockabilly style. From petticoat skirts to swing dresses, Bettie Page was a symbol of this 1950s style. Puffy skirts, corsets, frills and ultra-feminine dresses were all her staples.

Step4

Accessorize well with pin hair clips, ribbons and bows. The more the merrier.

Step5

Get your hair styled and cut like Bettie. Her long, flowing locks were always jet black, with blunt and heavy bangs framing her face.

Step6

Wear gloves, which almost always accompanied Bettie's tantalizing ensembles. She preferred to wear opera gloves, which are long gloves that come past the elbows (sometimes even all the way up to the shoulders). Black opera gloves add more to the Bettie effect. ( Though i don't think step 6 works with cold or really hot weather).. Also, There's this online shop called Betty Page (:

BUT TO BE KATY PERRY:

Dye your hair black. Katy also wears her hair in very retro styles from the 50's but with a modern twist. Look for curly retro pin up styles for inspiration. Katy also tends to wear a lot of flowers in her hair. If you're not looking to change your hair, you could also purchase a wig.
Look for vintage clothes and looks with bright colors and fun patterns, like florals. Katy's clothes are also in the pinup/vintage category. She tends to sport high waist bottoms and outfits cinched at the waist.
Try to look for unusual, but fun and unique accessories. A good place for accessories is girlprops.com. Make sure they compliment your outfit in a good way. Accessories Katy tends to wear are big bangles or neon colored Wayfarers.
Try to find shoes that are bright in color or have cute features like bows or polka dots.Katy seems to wear pin up styled platforms.
Wear red lipstick if you're wearing red in your outfit. Her makeup always seems to match her outfit. Black cat eye makeup seems to compliment red outfits also. If you're wearing pink, wear pink lip gloss or pink eyeshadow. Just have fun with the makeup and put a unique and cute spin on it.

2009-03-27T11:37:00.000-07:00

When the night won't fall and the sun won't rise
And you see the best as you close your eyes
When you reach the top as you bottom out
But you understand what it's all about

Nothing's ever what it seems
In your life or in your dreams
It don't make sense, what can you do
So I won't try makin' sense of you

[Chorus:]
Love just is... whatever it may be
Love just is... you and me
Nothing less and nothing more
I don't know what I love you for... love just is

When you ask to stay and then disappear
It seems you're gone but you're really here
When every move seems out of place
But every kiss is filled with grace

Some things never get defined
In your heart or in your mind
It don't make sense, what can you do
So I won't try makin sense of you

[Chorus]

Don't ever ask me for reasons
I can't get to you
Don't ever ask me for reasons
Why I live for you... I just do

I just do

[Repeat second stanza]

[Chorus]

im gonna be away, busy living life.

2009-03-26T13:21:00.000-07:00

so heyyy i have been vair busy lately, what with electronics coursework as well as my art painting that i have soo got to bring some life into it but i'll ramble about that later. Well, i didn't do much today just that I managed to be alright in school after one day of having my pms, but i was really needing the loo about an hour or so, but thanks to div's paracetamol i was fine all day (: I jogged round the farm today, and it was ... in a way very serene. very uncomplicated, and refreshing. It's been a while since i've felt calm and collected, i'm guessing it was the chocolate that i hogged on for breakfast this morning.

Babah called about a few hours ago, and thank god he did. Cos i've been trying to talk to someone about yeah the whole moving thing, then again he had to go to bed (: But yeah, thanks for calling babah, really appreciated it :) Remind me to bake you :
A big chocolate cake :)

I'm gonna be doing my electronics coursework in a bit, but i'll just be procrastinating here. :P But anyway, I feel fine. I don't really need to bother about 'things'. and especially some people. (: Right now, nothing else matters, because after seeing things in more detail. I live a pretty good life, pretty spoiled sometimes but heyyy i love it that way :)

Mind this narcissistic moment that i'm having, savour it. I'm not always happy you know. :)

I love you guys, :)

Oh, by the waaayy. Auntie Shikin ( a mum's friend) is coming round this monday to visit us along with her son, so i'm looking forward to that. As well as that T.Peeeej is coming on Friday! (: Friday night im presuming. She'll be bringing some of her friends from Germany, so it'll be ace having a teenager as well in Lancaster :) NOW, i have to wonder. Where do i bring her? and also... whether i have dosh or not. :/ pooo. :)

Blackpool anyone? or lets go to Preston and shop at Topshop or Primark! :)
Starbucks tooo!

:)
Happy Bunny

youtube. :)

2009-03-24T14:50:00.000-07:00

im not falling apart.

2009-03-24T10:18:00.000-07:00

Ooh

Danced all night, slept all day
Careless with my heart again
Fearless when it comes to playing games

You dont cry, you dont care
Afraid to have a love affair
Is that your ghost or are you really there?

Now I cant walk, I cant talk anymore
Since you walked out the door
And now Im stuck living out that night again
Im not falling apart

Ooh, oh

Weather on a sunny day
Time slows down; I wish youd stay
Pass me by in crowded, dark hallways
Mmm

Try my hardest not to scream
I find my heart is growing weak
So leave your reasons on the bathroom sink

Now I cant walk, I cant talk anymore
Since you walked out the door
And now Im stuck living out that night again
Im not falling apart

I heard you say you needed me now
Whats the problem I cant see
You destroyed me, I wont fall apart again
Im not falling apart

Take what you want
I will be just fine
You will be better off alone at night
Waiting and falling
Constantly calling out your name
Will it ever change?

Now I cant walk, I cant talk anymore
Since you walked out the door
And now Im stuck living out that night again
Im not falling apart

I heard you say you needed me now
Whats the problem I cant see
You destroyed me, I wont fall apart again
Im not falling apart

Ohh, ooh

nyaman lagu ani.

2009-03-24T09:52:00.000-07:00

Boy, we've had a real' good time
And I wish you the best on your way
Eh eh
I didn't mean to hurt you
I never thought we'd fall out of place
Eh eh, Eh eh

I have something that i love long-long
But my friends keeping telling me that something's wrong
Then I met someone

And babe, there's nothing else I can say
Eh eh, eh eh
There's nothing else I can say
Eh eh, eh eh
I wish you'd never looked at me that way
Eh eh, eh eh
There's nothing else I can say
Eh eh, eh eh

Not that I don't care about you
Just that things got so complicated
Eh eh
I met somebody cute and finally got each other
And that's funny
Eh eh, hey ey

I have something that i love long-long
But my friends keeping telling me that something's wrong
Then I met someone

And babe, there's nothing else I can say
Eh eh, eh eh
There's nothing else I can say
Eh eh, eh eh
I wish you'd never looked at me that way
Eh eh, eh eh
There's nothing else I can say
Eh eh, eh eh

(Eh eh, eh eh, eh eh...)

I have something that i love long-long
But my friends keeping telling me that something's wrong
Then I met someone

And babe, there's nothing else I can say
Eh eh, eh eh
Eh eh, eh eh
There's nothing else I can say
Eh eh, eh eh
I wish you'd never looked at me that way
Eh eh, eh eh

There's nothing else I can say
Eh eh, eh eh
I wish you'd never looked at me that way
Eh eh, eh eh
There's nothing else I can say
Eh eh, eh eh

(Cherry cherry, boom boom)

Eh eh, eh, eh
Oh yeah

All I can say is eh eh

I'm fine. :)

halo.

2009-03-23T12:06:00.001-07:00

oh yes, and ive lost only 2 pounds.
Losing more would be ace.

Oh, by the way.
Im getting a piano over the weekend.

I'm just a bit confused.

2009-03-22T04:10:00.001-07:00

Sunday Morning, and two more weeks till i say so long to maroon jumper clad uniform. Not permanently, for about 2 weeks of holiday would be satisfactory enough. I feel, a bit different this morning. In a way you could say i'm feeling rather vulnerable. I'm missing.. I don't know what I'm missing. Someone? Something? I just don't know. Jogging's been helping me think a lot for myself,..... i jog to this place at the back of the canal, and it's kinda isolated once you jog there at 6 to 7pm at night.
For one, I know I'm rather depressive about the fact that there is now a 75% chance that i won't be staying for my final year here. And I'll be going to Brunei for it. I'm just.. a bit confused with things.
It's great that I'm going back home, to meet family and closest friends. People, Surroundings, the place that i've been since i was a kid. But I'll be leaving... the bestest mates in the entire universe.
I'll be leaving my GCSES. I'll be leaving Lancaster. I'll be leaving.. everybody that I've been with for the past few years. :(

And yeah.
I'm just upset.

Watch out for a 'Halo' singing video.
Cheers.

TAG! :)

2009-03-21T06:14:00.000-07:00

RULES:- Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 2 random things, facts, habits, or goals aout you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it's because I want to know more about you.

*****

Yet again, I am 25 Random Fact Shtagged. (: Thanks Stell. x

well here goes once again!

1) I've been excercising sheeer loads lately. (: Pasal :.... SUMMER yo. hahaha, i sound sooo bruneian don't i?with my cakap brunei remixed with random english words. So yeah, I've only lost about 2-3 pounds in the past few days but i keep gainig that extra pound. (; Nevermind right> I've got ages till then (;

2) I slept in a green skirt last night, but this skirt. is a magic one, it becomes rave party dress in less than a minute, yes, bought in stores and small parts sold separately. cost and tax each paid at www.ilikemakingthisup.com

3) My current msn nickname is:
Hanna : (;
The type of guy who doesn't see what he has until she leaves.

4) Later on, Im going jogging alone to >________________<>

5) ~~sinner on days but always a saint (;~~

6) I ought to do my homework.

7) My youtube channel, is very boring. and is filled with stalkerish comments from Nat (:

8) ive been asking my dad whether i can do fencing pro-ly. (: and and and its a yes, so... yay! (:

9) i miss being in the k-boxes in brunei. well, i must admit they were always filled with underminded people or well.. is it politically correct to refer to them as being 'poklen'? well, okay i wouldn't call them that, i would simply call them... people who are less tolerate and less educated who freaking hog k-boxes. i mean sheesh, you have about 6 girls crammed in a '2 or 3' person spaced 70cm by 80cm box. blurting ttheir hearts out to 'dont chaaaa'and expect people 'especially' the weak male mind to drool over their oh so coolness. GET A LIFE.
But yeah, i miss Brunei. Though I don't really wanna stay there permanently.

10) i am very opiniated.(hence argument 9) i should be a politician. then again, i live in a monarchy where you don't OWN. and being a politician maeans you gotta be a big mean machine.

11) me and marion were talking about exploring the mystified gloriness of her ginger roots. i fell asleep straight after we talked about our physics teacher.

12) ~~i like physics. i hate the teacher.~~

13) i forget things very very very very very easily. one minute i have my phone in my hand then after that i go all 'has anyone freaking seen my phone?? ARGH, you dont understand me
yada yada, slams the door* then i realize its in my pocket. smart. but honestly at the rate im going, dementia or alzheimers is likely to eat my soul up and make me wonder about oranges turning into humans.

14) i was jumping up and down when Katie Perry got her trophy for best international woman singer? in the brit awards. also, i was rockafying to everyyy gig that was performed, making sure i sang to Girls Aloud and coldplay and duhh! DUFFY.

15) wait until i'm in sixth form. (;

16) my hairs a mess, because of it growing pretttyyy long right now, its going in my eyes as well as being unmanageable.

17) I'll be put under general anaesthatics on the 28th april. And i might be wearing 2 eye[patches instead of one.

18) me and mary are getting fat. so we have plans to do some 'asian' basketballing up in the hoood. with street cred. HAHA, neah. No, well yeah. Mary isn't, so i'm the one who kinda has to do pressups, push-ups and yada yada,

19) i had bad indigestion once, and we were to and fro london. IT WASNT FUNNY. i had to stop at about 4 service stops because of the urge to ... well. so yknow.

20) i had a fun time.

21) i am a list addict. very fact that i dont remember things well, proves it.

22) i like lists. lists are.... my buddddiiieeesss.

23)

do do do do do. i saw a spider and i didnt scream. cos i can belch the alphabet just double dawgg dare me and i chose guitar over ballet. cos i'll take these suckers down cos they just get in my wayy. the wayy you look at me is kinda like a little sister, your hi5's and your goodbyes, they leave me with nothing but blisters. cos i dont wanna be one of the boys, one of the guyss. so give me a chance for me to prove to you tonight that i wanna be your homecoming queeen, pinup poster dream, pretty in pearls. just one of the girls.

-KatiePerry 'One of The Boys'

24) I WILL LOOK GOOD THIS SUMMER. (;

25) i wonder if i should dye my hair. (:

Non Uniform Day.

2009-03-20T09:23:00.000-07:00

babes (; the weird 'lesbian' lot ( says rosy)

jump girls. JUMP.

mann. we look fugggly. :P but funn

awesome foursome! :P

lol. (; preeetty.

me and the babester (:

okay, we look uglyyy. then again. it was 7am!

reanne's hair.

Broni (: , my girlll :P HAHA (inside joke)

mary gartside.

So yeah, today was Non Uniform Day, and we had to pay a quid each to wear whatever we want. Must I say everyone looked soo grfeat today , especially well my pick was Grace, what you wore was awesomee. And Broni. CELEBRITY! :P though you've stolen my shades for the whole day!!!

Oh, and girls. I love you guys (:
Can't wait for Easter Holidays!!
X

dedicated to the birthday girl

2009-03-18T14:40:00.000-07:00

Well Here's to the birthday LayDay (:

i dont really know.

2009-03-18T10:00:00.000-07:00

I'd like to apologize to some mates of mine, who've noticed that i've warped out between conversations. I just am a bit, well. Down about things. And I don't think that some things can be resolved in a matter of minutes. I don't really wanna talk to well anyone about it, about this possibity that i for one, am not gonna be here for year 11. I think foremost, people will think it's easy for them to let go of close friends and places. But I for one, am not a person who just easily gives up on friends nor places.

I don't know how things will be like if i went back to Brunei,.. for one, I agree. I would have all my family with me, My grandparents, my aunts and uncles. ( It's a big thing in Brunei). But, I prefer living here for another year, and not having to say goodbye to... school. to my education, my friends. My life, in the UK.

Not Yet, Please?

Well anyway, I ought to go out for a while.
I'll just hog from here on end. That'll help me ease up on things.

I hope.

Well not that there is hope in me left.

(:

2009-03-17T14:32:00.000-07:00

(:
HANNA

First day back from School.

2009-03-16T08:54:00.001-07:00

Ye old class room.

hazel and holly. in the changing rooms :P

trishaaaaaa

Ah lass, we ave school for 3 weeks now, and its easter ftw. (:

updates:

i wanna be a doctor, so does mounika.
i have auditions soon, for talent night and btec night this week.
medial meetiong night on wednesday.
i have to soooo study and start doing all my homework.
expect a whole lot of modelling shoots.
i have to excercise a lot tonight.

trusted.

2009-03-15T08:12:00.000-07:00

Lies seem to be woven right out of the light beams of my new found glory.
Somehow i wish I could have stitched back time, and weave myself closer to you.

Does everything seem fine? No.

My universe, vast, filled with death defying wonder.
Filled with contradictive likeness, perfection at its best.
.
Does everything seem fine now? No.

Why do you ask, I reminisce in such a way?
Is it because of love? Is it because of getting smacked dead on by paranoia?

No.

It's because I lost trust.
I lost the very sanctification, the verification, of being able to word vomit to people.

I don't trust you anymore. I trust the people who have been honest with me throughout.

So here's a lesson well learnt.

Honesty is the best policy.

hiya.

2009-03-15T06:30:00.000-07:00

It's gonna be one week of school now, and as for all you Year 10's it means major procrastinating for the other sucjects but if you take for example, art like me. You have to press on with work and that lot. Majorly I don't think I'll be stressing out at all next week, just that I have about 3 major things to hand in, which is my art sketchbook, my dance choreography and my ICT Analyse section. Phowarrr, and to think i cba with most of my days.

Its only about 1 pm in cold Lancaster and i dont think i could fathom with anything else. For some reason, I'm missing this cousin of mine back in Brunei. Well, yeah I am talking to him at the moment on msn, but he's away. Well, I consider him one of the best cousins in the world because well, he understands me most of the time. (: And well yeah i spend most of my outing days with him.

A'Ai.

Too bad i've only got about what.. 5 months to be here then im off to Brunei for another summer holiday. Then again...

I might actually.. spend my final high school year there. I don't know for some reason, Mum's been droppng hints about it.. So yeah. I mean, I don't know what to say really. Moving back this summer for real is just gonna be a major thing for me. I don't think I'm ready, but then.. If it does come down to me having to move. Don't mind the waterworks after that. Obviously i'd be missing the girls. I's missing the guys. I'd be missing... everything. But on the other hand, being back in Brunei sounds fine although it would interfer with my MID GCSES..... :(

I just well.. I feel very down about things. and i really wanna talk to this cousin.

also for got top say.

2009-03-14T05:01:00.000-07:00

oh and by the way. Happy Red Nose Day.

One Week of not being at home I guess.

2009-03-14T03:35:00.000-07:00

So it's finally been a week that i have finally been able to blog. Though, it may have seemed to be a pretty sluggish start to Work Experience, it ended pretty fast. I must say, it had been a pretty enjoyable week despite having to be surgically removed from my mom as well as the rest of the family. Then again, it was pretty much my choice on being independant and yada yada. Would like to thank my hostess for the week, who was also my guider, advisor, and also my surrogate mother for 5 days -

AUNT POLLY. (:

Who's been able to withstand my constant talking, techno booming self. (: And also thanks for the great hospitality, i mean you pretty much were like a second mom to me all the way (: Also, thanks for well.. FOOD. (: I love your udon noodles and mince lamb, which i will try a.s.a.p , once i get mince lamb ( which is not that easy to get hold of in this area).

So anyway, these shots are just some shots that I'll share. More on facebook?

sunday morning.

2009-03-08T03:37:00.000-07:00

darn it, its monday morning, and the world is probably sound asleep. Then again, im a weirdo who wakes up really early to eat salads and watch starwars. Also,all of a sudden i feel lonely. (?) (pobre moment??) It's possibly one of those PMS mornings that ive been getting recently, where i feel bloated and yoghurt feels like a drug. And my bodyweight keeps plumetting down and then escalating reaaaaaal high. which is fairly annoying because ive been trying real hard to lose weight.

The only thing thats been helping is working out. And i get my lazy nights where i practically crawl upstairs.

Mum said that i should honestly stop eating too much and start drinking water a lot and work out a lottt.

Well anyway, here's Ministry of Sounds Aeroburn workout. Though, I prefer Deanne Berry's workout.

busy, and.. im going to be away i guess.

2009-03-07T10:24:00.000-08:00

Here i am sat, munching on pasta remixed with mayo and lettuce. Finally, dinner. The past few days have been quite confusing lately, because it's been quite an emotional rollercoaster. Finished my mock exams and all, but im caught in the ruckus of dance choreographing as well as work experience for next week. It doesn't help that i've been going up and down the weighing scale in a matter of a few hours. I gain one pound one day, lose two pounds the next and gain one pound back. Any ideas on how to lose weight in a stable way? It's such a challenge, but im hoping that by next week i'll be dropping about 4-5 pounds because I'm gonna try to put myself in a strict dance and salad diet.

Gonna be working at : Park View Surgery, Preston. So i'll be working with M all the way from our 9am to 5pm daily shifts.
Just came back from Matalan, Morrisons and B&Q, cos had to go find some wood pieces for mum's wardrobe, alongside some home decoration shopping. Then had to go food shopping at Morrisons, alongside some clothes hunting at Matalan. So yeah, I'll be sleeping at Aunt Polly's house for about 5 days and i'll be home safe, sound and tired by the time Work Experience is done. And with loads of things done i guess? Because ive got some dance choreo to plan, so it might help that i'm away from home for a while.

Well, anyway.. BLOG TOMORROW.

SORRY

2009-03-03T07:13:00.000-08:00

inactive for... 6 days.

kidnap my hearttt.

2009-02-26T05:42:00.000-08:00

Hey girl, what's your name I think I caught you looking my way Do you wanna know how to get me all to your own Weekends work the best I pick the place you do the rest Hey now don't be shy but you got to keep me in line Love at first sight never thought in could happen to me But you made me believeKidnap my heartTake me with youKidnap my heartMake my dreams come trueTake me away cause falling in loveAin't very far, not far from the startKidnap my heart.Can you get me up more Fun that I could ever dream of Could you tie me downCan you keep me hanging aroundI don't wanna be here to keep you companyPut your hand in mine got to hold on tight for the rideLove at first sight never thought in could happen to me But you made me believeKidnap my heartTake me with youKidnap my heartMake my dreams come trueTake me away cause falling in loveAin't very far, not far from the startKidnap my heart.You've got to hold me tighterCause I'm a real fighterDon't tear us apartLove at first sight never thought in could happen to me But you made me believeKidnap my heartTake me with youKidnap my heartMake my dreams come trueTake me away cause falling in loveAin't very far, not far from the startKidnap my heart.Kidnap my heartKidnap my heart...

:) Love this song. :)

in it class.

2009-02-25T06:42:00.001-08:00

Im now in IT again, and blogging. :) Because i'm pretty much vair bored. My surgerys gonna happen in about few hours. and im veryyy jittery. i just emailed fakhrul hello and hey to some of my other mates because 1) i am veryyy scared of this surgery. 2)im missing them already. Reminds me i should email Farhana :)

I'm not gonna be in school for Thursday nor am i gonna be online for 2 days. :/

and somebody is not gonna be online for a while next week. :/

darn.

inactive for 2.

sick in bed and surgery tomorrow.

2009-02-24T14:44:00.000-08:00

Well as for some of you, you might know that one) I am very very very sick and my brain feels like it's gonna burst any minute now, but hey I've slept for about 5 hours straight so i guess I'll be fine tomorrow. That's how you ought to be yknow, a fighter. *coughs*

and two) I have an eyelid minor surgery, at the Eye Hospital. :D How cool, is that? Having to go there and get my eyelid peirced with a very sharp needle and that they will possibly have to INJECT my freaking eyelid to get rid of that cluster of infections. :/ It might be infections, it might not be, but heyy DW. I'll be fine. But it would mean that I'm not gonna go online for about a while because of having blurred vision eyedrops set in my eyes for 24 hours, so it would be a fun time having to talk to my parents or play with my brothers straight after because for sure, I know that i'll mess up and start calling people wrong names.

I haven't blogged for a while and that as well as that i haven't edited my blog due to some major procrastinating which i might say is very harsh of me, but i have been reading. Which reminds me, Tomorrow lunch time, I think i'll go and revise some Physics because there is apparently a physics test that i am fully unaware of. Mhmm, German homework as well. That's gonna take a few minutes though, so i think i'll keep it about for tomorrow morning or later tonight. So far 2 days in school, and it has gone majorly slowwwwwww. I feel like death is just yanking me by the leg at the moment. Then again, Im the one with the effin cold.

Major Update though, I am first and foremost : NOT IN A RELATIONSHIP. and also, a pringle :D as put by Ninjabeats in her video. HAHA. :D Must be suckful to be with that one anyway. (*points out*) Neah, I just wanted to point that out really, because uno) people have been asking why my msn nickname is very depressing (?) and why i've been downing sad love songs (?)sejak bila ehh.. I mean, I'm 15 for pete's sake, I don't think, well.. Now is the time for one. I like some people but well, let it remain at that. I wanna finish Year 11 first then possibly get myself involved with people. So . SABARR YA'LL.

Plus, there's this guyyyy. HAHAH. BURNN. APAKAN.

know this dude?

hahah. im vaiirry sorry.

2009-02-20T07:56:00.000-08:00

hola meine readers. it has been about a week since i blogged, well not a week to be exact but it has been quite an awesomagical while. i've been procrastinating hella loads this half term and just going online and facebook. not too mention, i have been shuffling quite rarely, so what a way to spend my half term than that.

too stressed. too teary,

2009-02-09T13:11:00.000-08:00

i'm feeling wayyy stressy today and in a way, i know the reason why. ): I feel like breaking down and all, and just let out a big cry. I've done so already and i don't know, is it PMS? or is it something else? am i being a hypocondriac or being rather skitzophrenic? Mum's onto my sudden depression. what with me listening to 'Through the Rain' and blaring out depressive statements across the wails of Kenny G's Forever in Love and Going Home. ):

I'm really down, and i'm too stressy. I've got 3 sheets of electronics homework to type up, 2 pieces of chemistry to be done and a pysics test doesn't help either! I've finally drawn up the Jeffrey Fulvimari drawing that i have been eying and it looks pretty good. (: I might upload tomorrow and reply emails and what not because i think i have time tomorrow?

Though i have electronics tomorrow, I obviously won't enjoy it at all. Well for one, I left my pair of tights in school. So, big whoop there. Then i have got the much dreaded Mathematicas class without SARAH! ): Art, where i have to rush all my pages and colour in my drawing. Bloody Citizenship where i'm not sure if i have finished my homework and yes finally, a freaking test on radiation. ): Not to mention, fencing straight after, so i would be going home really late. ): Also, i have to walk home. ):

I've downed about a a fat roll of bread,cheese pastie, a muffin, some hot soup, noodles, 2 ice cream bars and about 3 glasses of orange juice. ): This must be a really stressy day then. I'm eating over my current limit and i suddenly see acne starting to come round. ): ewww, acne. Well, finally the tell tale signs of being a normal teenager, ACNE. ): not to mention, my gain in weight. ): aww, shuddup brain. shudddddduppppp! ):

thanks again!

2009-02-08T13:34:00.000-08:00

omg. again. im sorry for not being to reply at the mo people. ):
i'll reply it all by tomorrow night. im vair tired and i wanna go to bed and hw!
looking at facebook greets now. ): sorry for the waiit. i'll reply ASAP.

15th videos.

2009-02-08T12:35:00.001-08:00

How your meant to feel on your birthday, so special, and celebrated.
is what i felt today, with much beloved people. (though some were absent)
so thank you for all the greets and thank you for the wishes.
hope another year of grace and luck. (koko :) )
hands us another helping hand for us to succumb this cold icy chill...
It's either you want to be a saint or a sinner...
So buckle up 15 year old, your in for a thrill...
(:

I've been greeted by so many people, and i'm sorry if i don't reply you by tonight! :) There was like.. 30 something in the a.m alone! (: i'm really tired from walking about to and fro from Greaves and home. Not to mention swinging around and swirling about. (: I have to go to bed quite late as well, and having a lot of homework to do doesn't help either. (: Thanks to Broni,Mary and JJ,Shun for coming over (: awesome sauce right?

I feel really happy now, too happy. Not only are things just ever so perfect.
It feels real, and not fake. (:

I'd like to thank the staff at home as well. HAHA (: To Mum, for her splendid butttkickin camera and thanks for making all the food for today (: (I finally got the responsibilty to cut up my own cake! (: which is ace since how much she baby's me at days). Thanks to Daddy who also obviously helped around the house, and alongside the camera hunting i bet. Thanks to Auntie Saribah, who helped about in the house. (: Thanks to Babah for the lappy and greets! Thanks to nene/Tdah/Uncle boy/Tjoanna/Tbb for your greets!!! (: Though you might be far, but your always close to heart. as always. (:

15th birthday (: well spent.

2009-02-08T12:13:00.000-08:00

(: hahah!

the birthday cake (:

in my bed (:

jj, shun and me (;

i love you too bm!fooooood.

courtesy of broni (: i love you.

did i mention, it snowed??

i love you anyway cheeky.

courtesy of Mary (: I love you.

Words mean soo much more. But pictures are always a thousand words each, at least!

finallly . (: am i 15?

2009-02-07T14:51:00.000-08:00

Here i sit, and its 52 minutes past 11. Am i considered 15 already? I honestly don't know yet. being 15 doesn't sound too bad though. Would like to mention that people have been wishing me Happy Birthday on facebook and MSN, would like to thank you all, the greetings are much appreciated. I'm sorry I can't blog much today, have been really busy and babah's laptop that he sent has gone cuckoo over he past few hours. (: But i'll download some of the birthday photos tomorrow, straight after it. Shun has just cancelled out, and JJ is coming late. Though Broni and Mary can for sure make it. (: Oh well, it's sokayy!

The day has gone pretty fast and I know i haven't done much homework, I'm just too excited for tomorrow. (: Which i reminds me, i kind of have to clean up the licing room and get it set for tomorrow (:

Blog tomorrow!

omg

2009-02-06T06:31:00.000-08:00

i am now in school with sam.

and i am vair bored.

my laptops been a bit floppy so i guess i'll blog on the desktop tonight¬ :)

major updates.

what else. oh , i am 15 in 2 days¬

life suddenly changes.

2009-01-29T12:04:00.000-08:00

Life can change in a matter of seconds, a matter of minutes, a matter of hours.

Days.

A week.

Mine, has changed in only under 4 days. To which I am still caught in the undertow of all the confusions. For the first time in my life, the next day is unexpected. Everyday feels like a breath of new air. I know, a new day couldn't just make me feel that way, but it honestly does! I'm still high from moving to a new house vair vair soon, but after coming home from Parent's Evening, Things are starting to get better. (:

A lot of my grades have stabilised themselves and have gone up (:

Although that odd '?' Grade makes me feel a bit confuzzled about things. But majority of the comments from the teachers were very sweet and rather well. self satisying might i say. well, call me narcisstic but hey, i loved it.Mr Hobbs had to be the nicest along with Mr Haslam and Mrs Porteous! (: Mum didn't say much tonight, she said my grades were 'Okay' because one she didn't want to instill a blurb of confidence and two she had no other words too say. But i could see her smiling away and grinning chuffed smiles on my grades and attitude in class. Just that i need to work on spelling errors and the way i present my english coursework. Because sometimes, I ramble too much that I don't make sense. Oh and in chemistry, where i need to revise a lotttttt. (: I mean who wants a B or a C?

I saw Mary tonight, along with some other lot. Could i also compliment that Evelynn looks really pretty tonight? (: You look well sweet hun. But i didn't meet Broni nor Divs! Well Spaazzed. But hey, spent the night meeting up with Hazel and avoiding the odd trip in my boots.

Mums only advice was that i post up a hiatus on my blog, which where i will do. Well. Now to be exact. I am not going to be on blogging points anytime soon because i'll be vair vair busy(: Not to mention what with the moving, I need to pack and.. things? (: hush hush now. Working hard and working well is what i aim for now, nothing more. Alongside well some other things! (: So Sorry if i don't upload things or update daily. (:

Finally, I would like to congratulate :

KA ANIS (: on your Alevels hun.

KA ALIN! (: on your Olevels babes.

KA NADZ! (: on your Olevels honey.

moving somewhere new. (:

2009-01-28T09:32:00.000-08:00

I am moving my dearest readers. I no longer will breathe the wallpaper glue of my room and see cars pass by the M6. No longer will I have to stay quiet when i am in my room, because the brothers would be living upstairs on the 4th floor. I am moving, to well. somewhere! (: Which to be honest, is just opposite my school. Yes, you only would have to take about 30 steps and you'd be on my doorstep or vie versa to the science block. And not too mention, i will be oh so close to town! WHICH MEANS ; more school, more chill, more home, more things to come! (:

Mind you, this house is vair vair big. And close! So yeah, i'd only have to wake up at 8am now and go to school at 10 minutes till registration! (: And if i forget my homework, i'll do an aimee ferrie and run down during lunch! And awesomagically means. MATES will, come over to my house lots. You have no more excuses now babes, you will sleep and live in my room! So, yeah I will be moving on the first of March but i'd be packing and moving furniture for the last 2 weeks of february. I have to get through with my bash first! (: WHICH, i haven't planned.

Baby wants to drag us four ; Baby,My,Darling and obviously me as Honey (new nicknames!) to Greaves Park and do some photos during my birthday. Which i know would mean leaving guests at the house, but hey! (: I think it would be okay. Right By? RIght My? Right Darl? I'm sorry I didn't talk with you babes that much today. I'm feeling rather pms-ful (: But im fine.

I've got work to do now, plus a shower. So write again tomorrow?
WAIT!
Could I also add, i.. well, will be busy from now on. So mind me, if i don't blog. or skip a few days. or just haste a post and it'll be filled with grammatical errors. I'm waiting for Babah's post to arrive! (: it'll arrive in... 3 days time at the most?
which is my new lappy, and phats (?).
THANKS. (:

Tomorrow's parents evening! and Im feeling reallyyy nervy because of my expected grades and what with my attention in class declining. :/ well no it isn't. It's just Physics where i drift off to sleep because Mrs Dale just rambles on like a chipmunk stuck on fast forward. Not to mention, I have got Public Speaking tomorrow.

Grr. Nervy!

we're normal every other day.

2009-01-27T13:41:00.000-08:00

I love you two. see you babes, tomorrow. for fulll details on tonights hot goss! (:

this is what happens.

2009-01-26T14:18:00.001-08:00

what we get ourselves into.

a little game of eyeball tennis, girls running about without faces and cheesy hats.

(: lolums. see you tomorrow babes.

spasticated!

cos somebody told me to blog.

2009-01-26T10:27:00.000-08:00

Monday Night, and exactly 18 more days till the end of half term! So right, this morning, Year 10's and Year 11's had to go this assembly about the Holocaust Memorial Day 09, which must I say is the most yawn breaking, butt scratching topic of ever. :/ Sorry, Miss but hey, we've been through it. We have gone through the drill of 'Standing up fr Hatred' and 'Stop and Act'. Obviously those people who haven't given to the idea of unracialness have to be taught a lesson, but hey, no thanks. WE GET THE POINT, well after oh so 50 or presentations on holocausts. Not to mention a final term history essay on it.

Art was particularly interesting today, we sat there and tore paper. Might be a new way of developing our ever so hungry brains. Speaking of brains, i picked up these two books today, courtesy of the most famous and ever so trusted, public library of LGGS. er wait, its not public right? but i swear i saw some odd guy borrowing a book from there. But oh well.

Two books, One's simplistically named 'Why are they So weird?', which is a kind of self help book about the neuroscience going on behind our prefrontal cortex?(That bit of your brain which makes decisions). The reasons to why we articulate and are very idealistic one moment and the next we become incoherent and self centred. Pretty much a must read for parents out there if you really want to get down to the reason why your teen is likely to slam the door when you say something 'uncool' or why they are just perplexed pain in the necks. Though I have borrowed it just today, so no you can't borrow it from me. Find it at your local library or whatever, and read it. After 32 pages, I seem to understand the principals of the new 'normal' in adolescents. So, it is recommended. Then again, you might find it very very very boring.

The other one's pretty much just about Reason In Ethics. Okay, for some of you out there in the vast nothingness of space, I am pretty much very interested in philosophy. I think the love of questioning started out when i was 12, about 3 years ago now. Mum bought me this big fat pink book and on the front cover 'Sophie's World' was written in Mr Campbells Handwriting. As i approached this, i thought that this pink book was pretty much a fiction, but really it wasn't. It was filled with all these blurb about Aristotle and how the very essence of criticising and analyzing how humans think began and is still continuing. New theories developng to how we reason with things, how or morals are at the very top of our list or how sometimes or morals cloud or judgement. It started my interest on questioning about things. During after the book, I personally thought, my concioussness hadn't been developed then, and i am still here writing and wondering if i have. Have you found your conciousness yet? Are you fully aware of everything around you?

Nat, is this deep enough for you? lolisms.

sunday morning, sunshine coming through.

2009-01-25T02:54:00.000-08:00

(: I feel really happy this morning. Which is an up to what has been going on for the past few days. I know, I've been up and down recently, but hey yeah. Im fine tbh. It was nice to liein bed with mum last night and talk about things. (: It was, well a nice little girly talk. Well, not girly to be honest, it was kind of sophisticated remixed with some rather ambitious thoughts. Hahaha, so we were there curled up in bed, just talking about things till 11pm.

I love you mum. (:

I'm coming 15 in about 14 days to be precise. (: WHICH IS SOO COOL. Okay, i sound like im gonna venture into a new world, but hey going 15 is just that isn't it not? The transition of the number 14 to 15? That's a kind of new gap. Then who knows, i'll be 16 and 17 the next! Not to mention this is the age where i can finally go and watch Slumdog Millionaire and not be told to get out of the cinemas. (: (NOT THAT I HAVE THIS IN PLAN) Well, okay i do. Mum's been pestering me about what we're gonna do about my birthday. Obviously enough, there WILL be a celebration, mum was thinking of inviting her friends over for my birthday. I'm pretty much on a so and so on that one, well for one i know that they will be staying over night and all, but it's my birthday! :/ i want my friends. i want the people that i want to be there.

I had plans on wearing a chicken suit on my 15th, just for the sheer randomness of it. BUT NO, i am not allowed am i? (: But hey, i think we'd go through it in school. Girls, Emz,Divz,Beez, if your reading this, i want a chicken suit on friday. Please. It's like the thing to do for my birthday. Well yeah, these dudes have been bugging me about what im gonna do for my birthday so i might as well, chill with them lot instead of having oh well, people who are twice the age coming to my birthday. Not to mention, we might have a little rave during friday or monday. Depends whether we have enough dosh for us to throw a small party in class. (:

Oh, this is gonna be fun. (:

Whoops, not to mention, I have MOCK CHEMISTRY PAPER 1 on monday.

:) REVO TO-night my darls. Especially us Phys crew.

Off to town, darlings.

reliving.

2009-01-24T11:19:00.000-08:00

It's been a day of well, chilling down and what not. Not to mention I had been online and waited for people to come and talk to me, or via me talking to them but no. None of them did. I feel rather homesick today, not only homesick. But yeah, I've been missing a few people. Not that they would know how much I miss them badly. They don't call, nor drop me comments. Or they don't wait for me on msn. Well guess what? I'm sick and tired of it. So who cares? No not me. I don't wanna listen to all of you talking about your lives, while i listen. Tomorrow, I will be off. I won't be going on the usual 'Hey you, you okay?' kind of drill.

To put my mind of everything, I've been chilling old school. I finally have conformed to the 15 year old cult too. What with me actually attempting reading Twilight. I know, this doesn't sound like me, but hey.. I'm open to any new cults this Saturday.Not to mention, i've been jamming myself to guess what? To oldschool Snow white remixed with the occasional Lion King. That's how i spend my Saturday Nights from here on end i guess. Well, back to the topic of Twilight, I must say... It actually is a freaking good book. And i finished reading it this morning at 11am, *smirks* yes, i was awake at 7am to read the whole book in my makeshift bed of teddies and barbie dolls.

I called grandmum today, She lives in Brunei you see and she's the sweetest most giving grandmother anyone could ever have. I'm kind of nervous for my minor operation of the cyst this tuesday, so i was asking what i should do and that shiz. Apparently, she had it before when she was 18 ( bet grandmum was pretty back then) and the doctors had cut it out whereas my operation would just involve a little cut and vacuum. Pretty scary though. ): But hey, at least it will go away and not develop into something else. I'm not that scared about the cutting or injecting, but the thought of it being directly beneath my eyeball is the bit which scares. I mean you know, what if they poked my eyeball? (:

p.s i miss brunei.

electronics. (:

2009-01-23T06:58:00.000-08:00

hahaha, this is what i'm doing in electronics. very boring. sitting with sam and hazel.

(: pretty much ace day.

ihy,

2009-01-21T07:20:00.000-08:00

I HATE TODAY.

not to mention.

nevermind.

I HATE TODAY.

ceebs.

go and die.

and this person is not talking to me. I dont know why.

TODAY.

2009-01-20T12:08:00.000-08:00

LOL. Us Year Tens had such an amazing morning today. (: S'if. I could say that but some might have found it extremely hilarious or pointless in the first half but i would stress that some .. say 75 percent of the other half of the day was the most pointless. Though, seeing as how i was teamed up with Mary Gartside, my day wasn't all in shambles. This babe rocked my socks during the Teen Pregnancy Education bit. ( 2nd half on babies and not .. you know contraception (;) This girl came to the rescue when my simulated baby, which i now name Natalie. was crying for about.. 7 minutes flat. And all duely because it was hungry for its invisible electrolised milk bottle. I did say it was a simulated baby. The ones which are electronically charged and used for Teen Talks and passed around. (: So yeah. Apparently though, me and Mary do make good parents. So yeah, Simulated babies. For the win!

The period about Teenage Bringe Drinking was pretty fun i would say, the talker was probably in her.. early 40's and she was pretty much very friendly and presented her topic really well. None of those boring read from cards kind of people. (: plus we also learned that... well, your pregnant. and you drink alcohol, the reaction is somewhat similar to cooking an egg in spirit. yeah i was there. I saw it for my own eyes! the alcohol was cooking the egg. so just imagine what it could have done to an unborn baby of just.. oh say 4 months?

The part as to the above diagram, about maps. was pretty lame. i mean hello.2 hours of MAPS? mind maps?? Couldn't you give us free period? At least we'll actually be doing something effective. (:

P.S Have to upload photos from Mary's Camera. Alongside teaching her how to shuffle tomorrow. So bring your sneakers if your readin. Im bringing my glitter ones. (; So we could ravedance our Wednesday.

an essay. (: rate it!

2009-01-19T13:56:00.000-08:00

Increasingly, computers have been posterior in the average everyday classroom setting. Despite it however not being unnoticed, more and more of our daily tasks, are done in some way or another by the incorporation of a computerised software. In many ways, we benefit from it. In modern education, we use the computers, internet and software to equip the current generation, to broaden the child’s knowledge on presentational, research alongside problem solving tasks and also to prepare the children for the world that they will one day live in and succeed using their skills from using the computer. A computer, a surrogate classroom assistant.

We could say that the technological change is moving at a very fast pace. But could we also say that it is slowing down a child’s ability to learn to do things manually and not rely on software or computerised means of calculation or grammar checks? The debate however, continues. In school, most of the time we have been taught to incorporate our daily tasks, may it be presenting work or making a music score sheet, a computer is needed alongside its many functions. Have we moved on from the old scheme of things and moved the blackboards and whiteboards for interactive touch screens and the fast use of the internet. The answer is yes.

For example, In a typical Electronics class, Circuit Wizard is used instead of manually drawing a circuit and presenting it on line paper. Circuit Wizard, is a new system that combines circuit designing alongside stimulations assists students in their manufacturing of their circuits. Circuit Wizard in turn provides all the necessary tools needed to create the virtual stimulation of the circuit. It is fairly easy to use and the layout of the software is not complicated to understand and get used to. However, it is not personalized to everyone’s standards. Though students can work individually on this circuit, it does not benefit those who find using circuit wizard extremely difficult as there is only one standard level which is undefined. However in Art, we occasionally use Adobe Photoshop CS3 to which i personally found very useful and very manageable because of the extra points and tips alongside the screen. Adobe Photoshop is a professional editing software that manipulates images and it lets the user to manipulate or enhance the images in any way or form that they choose. Mainly it is used as a personal piece of editing but however in Art, editing images is taken seriously because it could be used in a job one day. This software teaches users, how to revolve around editing images professionally. To which many find extremely educational. There are many other types of software that we use, all varied and the majority of them are user personalized so it would work with whatever condition that person has or not.

The benefits of personalized learning would be that it teaches young people to perform tasks which then could be applied throughout his or her lifetime. It also assists pupils with their work presentational skills for example using software such as Audacity or Sony Vegas Pro to create a movie of some sort and the user may benefit by having extra effects on his or her presentation that some other pupils might not have learnt to use or has edited their movie in a way that it is deemed to be professional. Calculations and Grammatical errors would be fixed automatically and it would save our time and efforts instead of working it out again and again on paper. Despite the many ways personalized learning helps, there too are many disadvantages. Communication problems arise where students wouldn’t be able to communicate as deeply as they ought to because standardized texts and tools such as spellcheckers and grammar checkers wouldn’t help them in identifying the cause of their mistake. More or less it is like dismissing a bulb which has gone out but has an equipped power battery that it turns on itself and that you haven’t noticed anything.

But personally i believe it does help as it collaborate the need of learning with simple solutions such as formulating equations, organizing information and proofreading.

A question of why use a computer arises. What makes learners prefer using the computer to study rather than listen to teachers fro some topics?. Well, for one, learning from a computer means that the person would be able to work at their own pace and that if they see fit to move on or go back they can do so freely without interrupting a teacher. Usually learning from computer software gives out a sense of establishment only known to ourselves. Rewards are given out which aren’t normally done in classroom environments provoke learners to learn on their own software. Usually there would also be online certificates which are print ready to certify whether you have achieved a particular subject unlike in class where sometimes your work seems to be treated like nothing else. However there are many downfalls with learning on a learners own self because for one, the learner is learning without the help of a teacher and if they had more broad questions that they wish to question, the could not answer the software back. Despite learning at a person’s own pace this could lead to laziness and also the slacking of time management and also the slacking of interest in that particular subject. Motivation from teachers is mostly needed and wanted when wanting to pursue a subject to ensure a students need to learn is prolonged.

If the matter of having computer aided learning the only option for learning in the nearest future then this would not be particularly mean the end to socialising with friends and alongside having social interactions from teachers and parents and change of scenery. But it would benefit cost wise where the students would not have to pay for anything. To not have to pay for canteen, transport and uniform costs would benefit parents a lot. I however would like to stress that this is not adequate and is not healthy for a growing child because he or she would need to learn how to interact with people and learn how to deal with the many experiences school brings. Not only about the schoolwork and learning, but the part of making friends and learning how to deal with different situations. However if the aim was to be set upon people who are not in their high school years and wanting to learn individually and at their own pace, than I do not subject to that matter whatsoever because it would benefit for example a mother of four children who doesn’t have time to go out and study at a university but prefers studying at home

xox hanna. (: your teen writer.
no wait. spidergirl! (:

♥ remix.

2009-01-18T10:56:00.000-08:00

this is my wall. (: i've covered it with all these magazine cutouts. (: fashion baby!

this is greaves park. (: where we chill. meet. oh. and date mary! (:

this is the playground inside. (: where we play on the swings and scream about. for me, it's the best place to shuffle.

LANCASTER CHEERLEADERS! (: (lol) (no time for cheerleading!)
I think i'll just stick to dancing.

crib me. hahaha. (: it's the one right behind the bus stop.

this is where.. we sit. practice our speeches for last year. and where me and broni. were. bag stealing and hugging during last term (: HAHA.

reception. where. you know, girls ask for panadols or 'sweets' :)

where we chill. oh wait. no. (: where we USED to chill. now that we're seniors. we chill in our own form room or just go walk around and scare year sevens (:

point of this photog. (: Nothing really. i was vair vair bored and had nothing to blog about. so i had these pictures lying about, so i thought i might as well use it.

ILOVEYOUEVERYBODDDYYY(:

ILOVETHEWHOLEWORLDD.

Its monday tomorrow baby!

2009-01-18T10:26:00.000-08:00

Monday tomorrrow! And I have made about 3 shuffle videos for today. but i haven't had the time to edit them and oh yeah i used mums phone to record what with my phone being poop at recording, (: Also. had a fun time talking to babah via videocall. (: Apparently his birthday present for me might fly in on the 27/28/29th. Depends on the DHL. But really, It will take a week. About a week early. Cheers babah. (: And think about what i said about going to U.S (: Pretty please?

Mum, Dad and the brothers went to visit Aunt Polly in Preston, so i was yet again stuck at home. Well, this time it was my fault for taking a late shower. But heyyy, at least i had time wo work out and do some stretchings in the living room. *giggles* Along with dancing for about 3 hours i guess.

Would like to say : HAPPY HAPPY DAY TO YOU. (: No birthdays, no celebrations. just have a happy day! (: I love Sunday. Woah, am i still high from yesterday? I think i am. I'm already missing broni and mary. (: no to mention divs, but she didn't come... *poooo. me lavs you tho! So Monday yeah tomorrow, Guess what i've got first? It's ART! (: YAY. But thing is I have'nt done any observational drawings or research. which means i have to really concentrate in class. I've got about.. a lot of homework to do tonight. but hey im fine with it. ANYWAY :

some ehhhs (:
remix me/nabs/za/aaqil remix daddy in one. 08.

i love you brothers. (: altho. KAMU BISING ( you guys are noisy*)

yeah.. ): im a bit sad.

2009-01-17T07:35:00.000-08:00

Don't you be waisting all your

money on syrup and honey

Because i'm sweet enough

Don't you be using every minute on making a living

Because we've got our love

Listen to me 1,2,3

Baby, Baby, Baby

Spend your time on me

Don't you be out all night long

Leaving me all alone

Because I need your love

Don't you be spendin every day working away

Because i'm waiting for you

Listen to me

1,2,3

Baby, Baby, Baby

Spend your time on me

Spend, spend, spend your time on me

Please baby

Mmmmmmmm

Please baby

hola senorita sexy.

2009-01-16T09:10:00.000-08:00

Hola senorita sexies who are reading my blog everyday. (: Would like to totally ditch out the fact that i said i wasn't gonna blog but here i am blogging. The weekends here people and i would like to lay down some facts! (: On this weekend and majorly everybody else's in school. I've pretty much got a whole lotta things to do over the weekend. 2 essays, a speech and some write ups. Alongside with going out tomorrow, and video making! (: OH YEAH.

Oh. and guess what? Adi, a friend of mine. Has invited me to join in [Urban Wolkahz] or [U.W]! :) And I agreed! (: Okay okay, again self contradicting with the whole me not liking being in a crew. Then again, this isn't a crew. It's family! and we shuffle for fun and cwalk our hearts way. OH YAY! :D Pretty much [U.W] a little dance crew. ( I wouldn't say shuffle only! cwalk too!). Here is their current and latest joint video. (: Alongside with sBr Klumzee. (: Thanks KamiKaze! (:

So for the weekend guys. Apreciate what your doing this weekend! (: And have lotsa lotsa fun!

So hey, this means. I will have to make a shuffle and cwalk video too huh? and upload it very very soon! I will do.

:) Tomorrows revelation : You might have to say goodbye? goodbye to what?

i wonder. :)

p.s i bite.

2009-01-16T04:54:00.000-08:00

P. S.

I am very very very very happy.

Must be the yoghurt and banana that I ate.

P.S

Does this mean, I don't need backup?

Also would like to point out. In the BMS forum there's a fight. -____-

Ceebs. and their all attacking kamikaze. Who by the way, is such a nice person. Im on your side on this one.

(: alright mate?

Cheer up and smileeeeee. :)

no editing man.

2009-01-16T04:48:00.000-08:00

no editing man. this is a post to just say i will be inactive tomorrowww!!! :) because. me jalan. hahaha. apakan. awuu me jalan esuk. :) sama kawan2 me. (woner why im talking in bahasa brunei).

I'm gonna be rambling in bb from now on. because heyy its been a while since ive spoken in BB in a post. and pretty much i miss doing it. I noticed that F has used a lot of bm in his posts in asri-kuns blog which by the way! rock my socks.

absolutely funnnyyyy. (: Would also like to say that Public Speaking is coming soon and that I'd be busy till next week alongside work with Btech Dance Auditions and also Arts Award.

P.S i am in the art block where blogging aint banned im guessin! :) not like freaking room 4 where they ban you from every single thing because they watch you doing every single thing. I HATE THEM. :)

Anyway. Gotta join Mary and Broni now to do some art and talk about how Tomorrow's gonna be like. OBVIOUSLY. I have to buy some stuff first then off to Cafe Nero or Starbucks for us. Oh, and lotsa pictures with the babes too. :) YAY.

Zodiac predictions, eat your heart out. TODAY. I am my own boss. (:

omg.

2009-01-14T12:48:00.000-08:00

OMG. 6 more months till Brunei.
a few more weeks till my 15th birthday!
a few more weeks till my exams!

POOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. <3

another musing in IT.

2009-01-14T06:55:00.000-08:00

I am yet again in IT class, YAY the final lesson of the day then home i go. :) Saddo kiddo. Wish I could go to greaves and play on the swings. But no.. guess who woke up with a really bad case of the sore throat? Moi. har har har. and here i am supposedly doing my ever so worthless essay on

'Computers In Education'.

I know it is worth 20 marks and I have an hour to do and homework time but hey, i think i could do it tonight. I just ceebed and went to go read Fakhrul's blog where he put up this 13 things list. :) which was well cute! :) OBV. By the way, Dude you haven't been online in ages. Just to point that out.

Me, Broni and Mary are off to town on Saturday! (: YAY. Mary went at me and asked if we were gonna do number one of our bucket list which was the 'Cinnamon Challenge'. Where technically you eat a spoonful of cinnamon and see who can stand the longest with it in their mouths. Obv. Shopping for a full hour first then i can dunk some cinnamon and see who can puke the first. :D

Anyway. SHOUT OUT to ella and holly who are reading this. GET a Blog guys. (: Then we can procrastinate in this ever so prolonged hour of IT classwork time.

Instead of us just not doing anything and searching for random shiz on the net.

last ones.

2009-01-14T02:34:00.000-08:00

uh.. hahaha. some pictures that were recent i guess.

2009-01-14T02:10:00.000-08:00

when you wanna go out.

2009-01-12T11:19:00.001-08:00

I haven't been going out. MUCH. Not at all would be it to be exact. And it is pretty much very boring. It's the start of the new term i geddit but hey not being to able to go out? Nevermind. Gear up Hanna, about 5 weeks more till half term holidays! :) One week of chillaxing then off to school again though! (:

Would like to talk about ; FASHION.

In fashion obviously there would be some sub categories and those people who are in between who mix and match and like whatever trends coming round. Or the girls who would wear whatever they whenever. To be realistic, girls just where anything they want. May it be a bubble prom top on sunday and the next day they wear their chavvy savvy trakkies up down the road. (Not that I have done this before). Or from Tuesday wearing a pretty black striped top ( maybe labelled emo) and their red floral prints the next day. Fashion is something that can be used by girls to define what their personalities are. It doesn't actually make up what a girls worth but in some ways, it does potray what a girl is. ( Okay, if you disagree, please put up an argument against this). I mean, in some form of way, The way we dress does potray what we are, and how we do things. But the thing is, I don't understand how at times what you wear puts in you in a certain 'heading'. Well generally speaking, when you like wearing black all the time you get labelled emo?And when you like wearing neon and cool jeans you get labelled scene or goth? And if you like buying or going into River Island you get called a chav or prep? OMG. That is just wrong! NO. Some of us just like River Island or TopShop or NewLook. JUST COS. They have better clothes for us and we like the stuff there. So, no shiz on the labelling OKAY?

Jeez. sorry I thought i was just gonna clear that up for some people. :)

I totally totally adore MISCHA BARTON by the way. do you?

Good Morning Sunday! (:

2009-01-11T03:43:00.000-08:00

I think yesterday was possibly one of the most teary eyed moments from 2009. (: But in a happy way that is though. Because the family and I had quite a video marathon yesterday about our past. Not a tad bit of it but videos from 6 years ago, Birthdays, Events and pure memorable strolls around Brunei. I would like to say that the years that were shown to me on the videos seemed... seemed so long ago. Well not that long ago, but some parts i couldn't recall it. Well the whole video marathon started with my videos from back in Skerton where I had made some self made dance videos. (: HAHAHA. Not to mention I was really FIT then. Okay, I have gained some baby fat but im not tooo fat. -_____________- Although i have to work on it. My bestfriend, Fakhrul calls me chubby! Talk about being supportive. Me? CHUBBY? NO WAY.

P.s The reason Why i mentioned him is that.. HE IS LINKED!

FAKHRUL.

Thanks for linking me!xox

Back to my story, Okay It was awesome to 'awwwwww' at the baby videos of my brothers because OHMAHGOTTTT. They were welll cute when they were young. :') Awwww. I miss those years. I miss Brunei. :) I missed being that little girl with long hair who doted around her mum and anticipated tearing all the gift presents the morning after someones birthday because she wanted to look at them first. The little girl who blew out the candles if nobody saw them. :) The little girl that didn't have much to care about.

Also i noticed that My first baby brother Ahza, just is such a born entertainer because since he was 1 years old he was absolutely hilarious from back then! At one point he was dancing in a bed during a hotel stay at the Empire and he was singing to Madagascars 'I like to move it' tune. (: Bless. And Nabeel, just looked soooo cute! Aaqil equals awesomness since birth. (: To put in good terms, We were rather awesome kids. HAHAHA.

Mum looked great as well. (: Daddy... hahaha, minus some wrinkles and mooobs. *giggles*

AWESOMENESS. P.s mums hinted on her birthday present for me.

THANKS! :D

♥

2009-01-10T14:35:00.000-08:00

The Sexiest form on Earth.

10K.

in 2008 and 2009.

Still fit as.

Darn, I need some photo updates. BMD, I miss you already. Please bring a camera to school.

WE SHOULD CAMHOG. :D me lavs you ladies!

♥ a cyst appointment and also the loss of communication.

2009-01-10T01:42:00.000-08:00

So guess what i have been having for the past oh 2 months. I've got something quite easily compared to a cyst. But it's nt a cyst? IDK. I didn't get clear confirmation. Technically a cyst is just like a closed sac like feature, wchich occurs almost anywhere on the body as long as it has skin. Which in my case is inside my under eyelid. My mates haven't noticed it but since i pointed it out earlier in the week Broni keeps on telling me I have to get something sharp and poke it and see if it oozes out blood. Nice. I would actually do that B, but no. I won't. It doesn't hurt or anything it;s just that it pushes my eye a bit and it strains my eyesight. It gives me a bit of a blurriness at days. But it happens to anyone at any age. So I'm kind of fine.

These cysts apparently contain a gaseous, liquid, or semisolid substance. And are caused by : "wear and tear" or simple obstructions to the flow of fluid,

infections, ( this might be it)tumors,

chronic inflammatory conditions, ( then again. inflaming my eyelid could have been possible.)

genetic (inherited) conditions, and defects in developing organs in the embryo.

So yeah, I have wait... *searches for her GP appointment sheet*An appointment with a doctor or a nurse im guessing at the 'ADULT-OPHTAHLMOLOGY CYST CLINIC'. They have a clinic for cysts? :) Vair funny. On the 27th so I think i'll be missing 2 lessons on that day. :) Which is awesome on its own but then again. I would need to get a shot around the eyelid. Then they'd suck it up with something. Props to Dr MC. E. He hasn't even told me how the procedure id going to be like. I'm pretty much wishing it wasn't like the one in the video where the doctor used a scalpel and just cut it off from his skin.

:D OKAY. 27th HERE I COME!

call on me!!! :D

2009-01-09T08:43:00.000-08:00

It's friday people! And the weekend for the for the first week back form school obviously.I'd like to say people have soo many plans for their weekends this week then again, I might be staying home so that would just contradict myself. But i think I am actually going somewhere over the weekend. Apparently somewhere where it snows! :D YAY! Which might mean going across to Newcastle or Liverpool or just going up north to Windermere! How i wish i could go to Yorkshire or Manchester. Then again we might actually go there. :D What with me wanting to go buy something off Trafford Centre. :D Love it there.

School was pretty much ace today, because well hey who says Fridays suck? They don't. They major majorly don't. Because you just get hyped up because it's the end of the school week and your on your best because after school you go to town and meet with your mates! Or if your just me and my mates, we just look okay anytime. Well, Except for Wednesdays where our eyes look like they've undergone a botox shot.Oh, also. I just did this today. DO NOT EAT KIWIS WITH THEIR SKIN ON. It gives you a numbness feeling in your tongue for about 30 minutes after that. Thanks for the warning Ella and Mary but I tried it. and yes, I will never do it again. Although it was tasty....... :D

I would also like to add that us BMDH girls have created a bucket list of things to do. :)Which has pretty much fit things to do. Before we die im guessing. Hopefully we do get round to do them before our exams in March and which where we'd upload them! on Utube! (:

P.S : Thanks!

ZA, BEL and QIL.

I was wearing orangey tights.

Lol. Ka Haniz, Adek and Ifah. :) On their visit to Lancs about 2 weeks ago.

BMD might come round to my house to sneak me a peep later on. Their going to Ellie's party you see. To which i can't go... So yeah :D TMT!

Text me up first before you come :D

kind of im guessing.

2009-01-08T15:01:00.000-08:00

Finally I get to blog after about a day of fully just being in unavoidable situations like ICT Coursework and it was Daddy's Birthday today so we kinda had this whole proper meal set out on the dining table. On the menu ; Homemade and Hot Spaghetti. oh and THORNTONS cake! Mum makes them in such an awesome awesome way. (Y) Some might detest their mum's cooking but this writer kinda has it in for mums comfort foods. (: Which reminds me, where's mum, I want her to make me some foooood!

Also not to mention, Mum recently has splurged on 'healthy foods' which where she thinks can help her, eating healthy that is. (: Good on her!I've been on a diet recently, uh well It's not recently but it's ongoing. Where i kinda have to constrain myself from eating fatty foods and of course trying the contrain the usual tendency of wanting to grab a big glass of coke and stuff the bubbles inside my throat. But recently I've noticed my face has gone pudgier and the obvious 2 pound gain over 2 weeks of the Winter Holidays. So I've restricted myself from eating too much and that I have to start drinking water about more than my usual intake because well hey, I only drink water when im forced to. I used to be a health junkie, but then I slipped off that pool and binged on the junkiefood section of ASDA.

It's DAY 3 now.

CEEBS TEEBS, (:

3 days of School, and I have so much workload. (: But hey, All of this would just be a temporary tempest of finelined paper being strewn in our faces and where we are forced to do it because if not, we'd be forced into Coursework Clinic.(where all the bad people go) (AS IF) But yeah, It's Friday tomorrow! and Ellie B has got a birthday party where I don't think I can attend. -__- Due to some reason.

So I'll blog some more tomorrow night and upload some pictures.

but for the mean time:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY PJ!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ELLIE B!

HAPPY BELATED TO AAQIL PHJ!

I LOVE YOU!

lolisms. musings in IT class.

2009-01-07T07:08:00.000-08:00

Spreasheet skills are killing me. :) Currently sorting out my finances on them :) lovely thing Microsoft Excel. Hard but very useful :)

BTW

I wanna change the layoutr later. :D

haha. in school and CBA.

2009-01-06T03:19:00.000-08:00

Im currently in I.T class. And tis is very very boring but yeah Dana, Rosie and Me are in a crew. For our Presentation on Computers and Healthcare. So yeah, we kinda have to research on The diagnosis and monitoring of patiesnts, Improvements of the life of doisabled people and blah blah blah all about how computers have helped us update patient information for NHS or some other hospital system. (: Which reminds me. I have to meet my GP today to book an appointment. Wait, is that meet my GP or call? Think i better just call. Odds are the worst thing that i;d get is an Augmentin Injection in my eyelid. because of the whole dust particle falling in it.

:) Hahaha, times like there i actually wanna become a doctor one day. But I wanna do something that involves art. My art, my drawings. So i think i'm better suited as a an engineer with a part time job as a brain surgeon who drives a big BMW an interior desgins friends houses and travels to the moon for austronautical ventures and goes to Johannesburg for fashin shows and protests.

LOL. I'm craving more soup from the canteen. I just ate some Tomato and Basil and shared with divs. But yeah. It's cos Broni's not here so i'm having her soup for her.

:D BTW. I miss you already. Get well :)

some old cakes and biscuits. (:

2009-01-05T09:40:00.001-08:00

I'd like to upload some pictures of somethings i made in brunei. (: LOLISMS.

P.s I made this cake alone. :D Mum thinks I'm not capable due to the whole me being small thing but look mum i can make a cake! Thanks for the recipe though! :D

Kuih Mur, well helped really.

Pineapple Tarts.

Mhmm, I remembered this night. It was like about 3 nights before i went off. And i unpacked everything out hoping I could have stayed. But no, I had to go fill this bag and leave. Leave Brunei, leave family and friends. But hey, if i didn't have packed my stuff i wouldn't be here now would i? Enjoying life as it is.

( Teddybears (; Sketchbooks, notepads... but my clothes? I seem to not want to pack back then).

Har dee har har. I would like to say in a first day back of school. And well , I could simple summarise it as being LOL.

:D SPAZ. pictures will be updated. when my friends agree to camerahog with me :D

philosophical musings of Hanna Afiqah♥

2009-01-04T03:03:00.000-08:00

I had a pretty close talk with my aunt yesterday. T.dah. i love you by the way. So it wasn't technically a proper talk because hey it was on MSN. Because she's halfway around the southern hemisphere and i am here in the north. Technically i love her to bits this aunt, because she shares a lot of her advice and her bubble milk tea moments in the mall with me. Along with the arcade and trying to dance an MC HAMMER groove but that's all in another fairytale of its own.

But we kind of had this discussion about me growing up soon. Well, not growing up as in teenager to adult. But hey i'm gonna be a midteen in about a month. Fifteen. Where your snug at the thought of being just a teen. not a tween and not a teenager. I mean in a way I kind of wish i don't have to turn 15. Because for sure, who ever wants to grow up? But then being 15 would'nt be so bad either because hey for one you could watch PG 15 movies. Not that it matters in asian countries because of the whole no PG at some movies hype. I mean have you seen the Mall Cinemaplex? They bring babies to PG 15 horror movies and expect the kid to sit there and watch it with them too. For sure, this has about happened to me twice. And the kid is there screaming his butt off.

Okay back to point, I really do wanna grow up. Because well seeing flashbacks of my actions recently mum has said that well im not 'berakal' yet. What with well..... things. But the big '15' could change all that and prove that I'm not a silly little girl anymore. I've been trying hard to constrain the little girl in me who is pretty much seemingless of the world around her. I mean I know I get delusional, and talk to myself a whole lot but isn't that normal? Spending time alone too is normal right? Don't tell me im not. Because well hey. I AM. SO THERE.

We did'nt cover pretty much everything about 15 just 2 , 3 points about it. About me attending a girls school and yeah stuff about being a lady with as much self control there could be. But *sighs having a really good girl talk with someone who actually knows about things is nice. (: I mean not that i get that with mum, but i mean someone younger and updated with things should be consulted first instead of the 'early generation'.

So I've got a piece of advice for some people out there. No matter how old you are, BE that age. Don't ever think your younger or older. Hug Maturity and The thought of being another year wiser. But hey don't lose out on life as well just cos your being one year older. :D

i wonder....

2009-01-02T04:38:00.000-08:00

Listen to this slow jam everyone.

I wonder what's going on with a few people.

I don't know, but yeah. Somehow you try your best to be really understanding about things. May it be friends, family or yada yada. Do you ever feel that you've tried your hardest and that *sighs* they don't see that? They don't see how much a friend(or more) you've been. They don't see how much you appreciate them and how you wish they'd treat you the same.

I've noticed this with a few people.

How you text them everyday.How you wait for them on msn.How you wanna meet them up and go out together.How you wish they had texted you up during the New Year and just said a simple 'Happy New Year' or something. mhmm. idk. it might just be rambling about this shiz. 3 days more till i go to school. And i feel like i wanna stop blogging for 3 days. Call it a hiatus or whatever but i just feel so 'ceebs'. Ceebs Teebs.

I think i wanna keep it on the DL today. Do some work. Sleep. Pray. Eat. Read a Book.

Also I should have a movie marathon.

Anything to keep things off my mind.

New Years Day.

2009-01-01T04:08:00.000-08:00

Morning has started out with about 3 slices of toast with chocolate and more hot chocolate. :D nyummos. Cos of it all being New Years Day and all, guess what band i was listening to? Yeap. NEW YEARS DAY. I remembered when i was so emo to this song. Not that i am. 0_0 don't look at me. i'm not conforming! HAHA. but anyway, yeah 'My dear' is an awesome track of theirs along with 'Brilliant Lies'. I still have it on my phone and they are worth listening.

Also i would like to inform you clickers. that the 'ME' bit of my layout has probably spazzed itself last night during a rave or whatever because it is not working! ): I've tried and tried to fix the codes. It might be a silly mistake though like inserting a '

' somewhere like right in the middle of the title. So yeah, people it ain't working.

ANYWAY.

Would like to Congratulate :

KA FIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII R. :D and also ABANG AH LONGGGGGGGGGG.

On their engagement.

May Allah bless you two!

Also Congratulations to GranPa Babah for his wedding today :D

I'm happy for you!

May Allah bless!

2 more hours.

2008-12-31T14:32:00.000-08:00

2 more hours till UK reaches it's New Year. and that would trigger the fireworks around my neighbourhood. I've curled my hair, put on the best trakkies ever because heyy, im most comfortable in them. chavvy savvy? who cares. this is how i will enjoy my new year! :D Also i've got some gangsta songs in the background. HAHA. talk about utter boredom. I've deleted all my facebook albums for this year, because im starting fresh and clean for 2009. I've made some rather silly decisions in 2008, and deleting some of them is the best way i can turn over.

Babah called me today, which is somewhat a rarity on its own. Okay not that much of a rarity but recently he's only called me about 3 times? Yeah, so i wished him happy new year and said hey to the aunts who were going 'HAPPPAY NEW YEARRR NETT' over the other line. You see, my nick name is 'Unit'. You know as in unit 1, unit 2, unit 3. It has a meaning actually, so i'm well proud to be called it. But no, that isn't an invite to call me UNIT. Only close people do. So yeah, he'll call again tomorrow he said, because of a certain family wedding he had organised then he can call me i guess. He'll put up the webcam for me to watch the wedding, but i guess it's best if i don't. :)

Mum's uploaded our pictures on facebook! :D Well glad about it. But I won't start psoting up albums just yet i guess. I need to get over this 'delusional' state of mine.

Well Anyway, Cheers! and and

Happuyyy Neeeeuuuu Yeeaaaaahhhh!

*them baggy sweatin pantts, and the reeboks with them straapsss*

*she turned around and gave that big bootay a smackkk*

*she hit the floor x2, next thang you knoww*

*shawtyy got low low low low lowwwwww!*

-Flo-rida ft T-pain ; LOW. 2008.